Sometimes I feel as if my life is just one reflection of a mirror which is held up to another mirror and then inside all the reflections do I sit on the edge of my bed shirtless and dirty. A mere copy and lineage of an endless boy shirtless and dirty at the edge of a bed. Get my hair cut, clean my room, shave and get a new suit. Look at the mirror. It is not as if I have become someone different, but predictable. I'll accept my inheritence of generations before me to smile when I feel like crying and get sick when I feel pain. But the laughing is always genuine, kid. Maybe you can see the brokeness around the cracks of skin and crumpled eyes, but when I laugh it is always real. It always for you.
So if it matters or not, I think I'll stay like this. Charge during the weekdays, feel thrown around and lonely on Saturday nights. So maybe put on a skirt for me, even if I don't see you. Maybe laugh thinking I would have said something funny if I'd have been there. Maybe, maybe, maybe.
I'll be held and warm someday. Somebody will look after me, I'm sure.
So if it matters or not, I think I'll stay like this. Charge during the weekdays, feel thrown around and lonely on Saturday nights. So maybe put on a skirt for me, even if I don't see you. Maybe laugh thinking I would have said something funny if I'd have been there. Maybe, maybe, maybe.
I'll be held and warm someday. Somebody will look after me, I'm sure.
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